my mind has not been itself
because it has not had its companion
that stimulates its being
therefore leaving it somewhat stagnant.

I'm left feeling invigorated
and creative to boot
words are forced in and out of my head
like laundry down a chute

spending the summer in the rockie mountain way
i felt invincible
now back on ground
i feel dispensable

this ongoing feeling
of negative force
I'm reckoning with
the unsatisfactory that i didn't miss

trying to understand why this is forbidden
just makes me want it more
let me move where i can have it forever

Theo D.