My Creaky Limb

Its amazing the things that one can forget. You can forget keys, cell phone, shoes, clothes, etc. But what happens to a person when they forget a social skill. This is something that you can't easily recover by saying "shit I forgot to grab that". No the loss of an ability to act or realize you can act a certain way in a certain situation is crippling. Is it gone forever....no, but will it have immediate consequences....yes. And one can not simply run back and grab it. You must go through painful trial and error to simply try and see if you can get back what you once had. What makes this more difficult is trying to explain something like this to people, especially those that it may directly be relevant. You can't walk around with a disclaimer saying "due to past events, I have no idea how to act around you. Please be patient as hopefully this momentary period if idiocracy will wear off". Nope you have to hope that person might possibly stick around long enough so you can grab enough courage to walk out on you creaky limb and say/do something. Odds are they won't and odds are you will be left in a place you didn't truly want. So in the end all you can do is give the middle finger to those who caused you to forget this important life skill, and plow forward, realizing wholeheartedly that you are about to screw up in the most frustrating manner.




STW